On being a Plus Size

I thought that I would be like most women who want to lose weight once they had their baby, After I gave birth and my baby bumb was gone, i was left with a a very different body shape.now I am pushing 100 kg (200 Pounds) and I planned that I would lose weight after I give birth, and maybe breastfeeding but now that I actually think about it, I dont really want to lose weight. I think I want to try being big/fat for a change, and then lose weight when i want to go back to being skinny, but I swear being big isnt that bad. I like it actually..   I cant really lose weight anyway because Im breast feeding but once bf is over I think I'll stay this size for a while. Target has some really amazing clothes for plus size women.. no wonder big girls looks so stylish.. I need to get some sleep.